I love you baaaabyyyy

So I did a thing today. I decided to make an Instagram about my fertility journey. I’ll leave the name down below for you guys to check it out and I’ll probably link it somewhere in the top menu. Anyway, all four of us are staying at my parents house tonight because of Marcus and his crazy work schedule. We decided to stay here because it is tem times closer to his work then our place and really trying to save gas until I get paid for babysitting Jayden. Mom made a cheesecake, so besides eating all my dinner I’m super stuffed. Marcus even brought home son goodies for me from work. Tomorrow is the regular laundry day for us, and then back home to adult some more. I’ll be pretty active on my new page, so feel free to check it out for updates there as well. Anyway, thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.



Long awaited


Hello everybody! I am so so so sorry for not updating this and being away for so long. I just needed a break since I have just been going through some personal struggles. I have so much to tell you, it’s ridiculous. So first off, I celebrated my 24th birthday on April 24th (24 on the 24th haha I heard it all day) which was great. But before that, I was super struggling with myself. We have been so busy and everywhere, it’s been out of control. But anyways, I started taking my BBT (basal body temp) and recording it, because I’ve been having some issues with ovulating. I also started reading this book called “The Underachieving Ovary” and as always I will leave the links to where I got everything down below (thanks to my Aunt Charlie for getting these for me). I also started trying this fertility tea which is pretty good, but I haven’t had enough of it to really say much about it just yet. I am now Jayden’s permanent babysitter, which doesn’t cure baby fever at all but it does help a little. I’m still on the hormone balancing act, but it has gotten a little better. My periods are more regular now which is nice, and I feel like I can just about time it now. Toby and Shatzie pup are doing really well, Shatzie turned 5 months old the day after my birthday. We are still on the hunt for a new place to move into in late October, early November, so that’s been a hassle. In 29 days Marcus and I will be married for 2 years which is crazy to me, and next month is our trip to Colorado. Once again, I am so sorry for staying quiet for so long, it’s just been too much to handle lately and I needed a break for awhile. But I’m back now with more crazy adventures and storytimes so look forward to that. Thank you guys for all the love and support as always. Much love.




Woman struggles

This period has been the hardest one I think I’ve ever had. It was so bad today that I had to take a hot bath and lay down for a nap. It’s super heavy bleeding and I’ve already almost gone through a 34 pack of tampons already. I know it’s TMI, but you know that I keep it really real here. Marcus has been taking care of me the best way he knows how, and I love him for it. Hopefully it will be over soon, and I’m not as bummed out as I thought I would be. I guess I’m just looking at it now as another chance to try again. I’m just glad that we are getting this taken care of now and not later. I have the best husband I could ever ask for, and he is so patient with me with all of this. Anyways, thank you guys for all the love and support as always. Much love. 

High hopes

It was another “high” day on the monitor today. Hopefully I will be ovulating this month or next. We did baby dance last night, and I’ve read that helps us have a better chance. I have been thinking about trying the fertility bracelets I’ve been hearing so much about, but I’m not sure where to find them, but I will look into it for sure. Other then that, not much news on the fertility spectrum of things just yet. It’s been sort of a lazy day today as it is one of Marcus’s days off. I cannot thank you guys enough for how much love my little blog has been getting, and how much love I got yesterday on my post. I was so amazed to see how much love and support was pouring in, even when I shared it on my Facebook page. This journey isn’t an easy one by any means, and I thank each and every one of you who takes the time out to like, and even view the post. It means the world to me. Hopefully within the next few days I will be getting my “peak” reading on the monitor, and then we go from there. I’m going to probably be filming another update tonight for Marcus and I’s Youtube channel, so keep your eyes peeled for that. Anyways, I’m going to go and enjoy a movie night with my husband and just relax. Thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.

Best news ever

You guys! After three days of low ovulation tests, I finally got a high one! This means that I am indeed going to ovulate this month and that my medications and cream is working! I am so beyond excited that it’s crazy! I finally feel not so broken anymore and that is the best feeling in the entire world. Marcus is even excited that I will soon be ovulating. Of course I have to keep using my cream until day twenty something and then stop it and wait for my period to come but still. This absolutely proves to us that the diagnosis was indeed correct, and now we know how to fix it. Obviously, you all know what we will be doing tonight (I’m keeping it PG if I have young readers). I cannot believe that we have this opportunity to make myself better in a way that I never knew existed and that is actually working. I felt like we had tried just about everything before, and we were literally considering a fertility specialist. But now we don’t have to, and I am so relieved that we don’t. Obviously we would still consider it if it came down to having to do so, but we don’t have to spend that money now. Anyways, I’m going to finish watching Doctor Strange with Marcus before I babble your ears off. Thank you guys for all the love and support as always. Much love.


I have some news. Both my aunt Charlie and I have been doing a lot of research, and we (as in Marcus, I and her as well as her doctor whom she spoke to for me) think that we know the answer as to why I haven’t become pregnant. I have a hormone imbalance, and Estrogen dominance. Basically, my body doesn’t produce enough natural progesterone, and makes too much or not enough estrogen. It is fixable by the way. I’ll link everything down below of course, but what her doctor prescribed for me is a supplement called L-Arginine, as well as a creme I put on twice a day that is natural progesterone called ProHelp. Basically, when I wake up in the morning, I apply the creme (about 1/4 tsp) to anywhere the capillaries are close enough to the skin and very dense (inner arms, face, neck, etc). Then with the supplement which is pretty much an amino acid, I take it 1-3 times a day between meals. I know it seems like a lot, but Marcus is taking the supplement with me (the pill not the creme). For Marcus, it can help his little swimmers increase, as well as other things. It comes with tons and tons of information, and the website has videos which are super helpful as well. I started my first rounds of both the supplement and the creme today. It also can help kickstart my period which would be so helpful since it’s cycle day 90 something for me. Anyways, I’ll link everything below for you guys to check out. Thank you so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.


Apples and Jasmine

As I sit here being gnawed on by Shatzie pup and listening to Marcus finishing up giving Toby dog a bath (Shatzie pup got one when we got home), my entire tiny apartment smells like a mixture of Jasmine puppy shampoo and Green Apple Toby shampoo. Laundry is done, pups are clean and happy, and I am content with my little family. So far nothing has happened yet with Premama, but I’m not losing hope just yet. I know lots of things take time and patience, but sometimes I think we get too caught up in it all. I guess what I’m trying to say is, don’t get too stressed out if you’re TTC (trying to conceive) and let your “making a baby dance” become a chore. Just have fun with it. Don’t be too serious all the time. I guess I’ve just been thinking about it a lot lately, and I so understand that it’s hard seeing others pregnant or have kids. Believe me, I’m in the same boat as everybody else wanting children. Granted I may not have PCOS or endometriosis or anything to that extent, but I do understand the want for children. Anyway, enough with the heavy. Thanks for the enormous amount of love y’all have given my little blog. I appreciate every single one of you!