Real life update coming your way. I’m still unpacking the damn second bedroom, and at least trying to make it semi decent. Until further notice, it will turn into my beauty room. Speaking of further notice, let me fill you in shall I? It’s literally not as exciting as it sounds. As of now I am on CD (cycle day) 35, and my temps are rising. I’m once again on the wait for ovulation (hence the rising temp) and waiting to start my progesterone cream yet again. We have been trying Preseed as well, which I’ll leave a link down below to it, if anybody is interested in lube (ha funny. No?). Sounds gross I know, but you never know who else is trying to have a kid. Also, I have been ovulating, even though it has been later then I thought it would be. So yeah, that’s pretty much where we are right now. Still taking our vitamins (yay), I’m still on my meds for everything (not so much of a yay), and now we have a bigger space to try for kids. Anyway, thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.
Well after two negative pregnancy tests, I started my period yesterday. So it looks like this month isn’t our month either (go figure). Also just my luck, I packed my midol in a box somewhere in the garage that I cannot find. Yay. Amongst all thing, period acne has flared up like a biatch, I’m cranky, overwhelmed, and have two days to make sure everything in my parents house is back in order. On the bright side, we move into our new place on the 1st, so hopefully Aunt Flow isn’t as bad by then or I may end up going nuts. For those of you still wondering, I’m still on my meds (yes there is a blog post about it, go read it) and yes I have been ovulating. Not to be bitchy or mean, but I’m not really looking for advice on how to get pregnant right now, so please don’t try. I love you all, I just need a minute. Also, I don’t want to hear about how I should be pregnant by now, and how I’m failing at it (yes there have been a few people who have said this). Anyway, thank you guys for all the love and support as always, I will return to my normal self in a few days when everything slows down. Much love.
Well, it’s Wednesday morning and CD (cycle day) 12. Woke up, went pee, took my vitex, and my first round of progesterone cream of the day. I’m supposed to apply it on myself in 1/4 tsp. where the capillaries are closest to the skin (palm of hands, wrists, inner arms, neck or face) twice a day until CD (cycle day) 26. After the 26th day, I stop and see if my period comes within a week. I told my ovaries this morning that we are going to ovulate properly and make a baby this time (no, seriously, I did). Also since I’m almost out of this jar of cream, my new ones came in the mail yesterday. Toby dog even reminded me to take my meds this morning. He has a habit of pawing me until I do so. So if everybody could give my ovaries some sort of encouragement, that would be great. I’m over here with pretty much everything that you can cross on your person, crossed. I’m honestly trying to have high hopes for this cycle, but I don’t really wanna get that excited. I know that sounds so bad to say, but it’s the truth. But anyway, thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.
So my nifty little FF (fertility friend) app tells me that my periods are 95% regular. What does that mean you ask? Pretty much 90% to 100% is a good thing, you have normal periods and shouldn’t really worry much about it. I feel lucky enough to know that I’m regular that way. But lower than 90%, you should probably go and seek some help. Thanks FF (fertility friend), I now know that I’m regular (sarcasm included). I’ll leave a link to their website down below for any ladies interested in checking it out. You can also download the app on your phone (I’m totally not sponsored by the way). It is really helpful since it does adjust itself to you and your body. Sometimes I feel like pounding my head into a wall, but that’s not a viable solution. Other than the migraine I’m working on getting rid of, we are still in the process of waiting for next Wednesday, which is when I can start progesterone cream again (yay me I suppose). As much as I hate the waiting game, it has to be done. I guess I’m just really impatient as far as this goes. Anyway, thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.
After 5 horrible painful days of shark week, I am finally done. No more bleeding, no more cramps, no more gross. So now it’s back on track with meds, vitamins, and tracking for ovulation. That’s right, more temping for me. I start my progesterone cream again on the 13th which is Wednesday of next week. I continue that through day 26 of my cycle, and then stop, wait a week to see if my period comes again or not. If not, repeat process minus the bleeding. I feel like I’m on the repeat offender list. I’m so hoping this cycle is the cycle for us. I know I say that every cycle, but it’s the truth. All the letdowns really get to me, and it sucks to be honest. But, we have been sticking to our vitamins and I’m hoping so hard that will help. I just wanna scream at my ovaries to do their job right, but I know that probably won’t change anything. If it does, I’ll be shocked (if the neighbors hear me screaming, I’m not dying I swear). So in other words, keep your fingers crossed for us this month, cause I sure as shit am. Anyway, thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.
So yesterday was a shit show. I took a pregnancy test after being god knows how late, and thought I saw something. Cue the excitement and happy tears. Obviously after much more detailed investigative work, there was nothing to be seen on the test. Cue emotional breakdown which included: tears, almost breaking the new carpet cleaner (I didn’t), and sitting in the bathroom for a good solid hour. But this morning after a long awaited, very confusing 66 day cycle, the red witch showed her face. That’s right, Mother nature is a biatch. I can say that I’m okay with it cause that last cycle was hell, but I am still a little bummed to be honest. I’m starting to look at it in a way that Marcus and I can try again. So you know, a little light at the end of the tunnel. I’d rather be growing a tiny human than bleeding right about now, but it is what it is. So cue the midol, dark chocolate cause my husband is bomb, tacos for dinner, my tiny human godson, and lots of kitchen packing. Hopefully that will take my mind off of the raging war hammer inside my uterus. Anyway, thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.
Well, still no shark week as of yet, so today we venture to Walmart to buy pregnancy tests, among other things. Now I know I’ve told you before that I’m going to be really blunt and honest here, so if it’s too much for you stop reading now. Not only have I been having massive amounts of CM (cervical mucus), but both my breasts including nipples are killing me. Also, I’ve been warmer than usual, and I know it doesn’t really have anything with summer. I’m at the point to where if I’m going to start my period, then I want to get it over with, but if I’m pregnant I just want to know already. We’ve still been taking our vitamins religiously it seems, and I do notice a difference with myself. I’m not sure if Marcus does because he hasn’t said much about it to me. Anyway, we are going on a date tomorrow night, hence the other things we need at Walmart. Besides the vitamins, Marcus and I have been trying to eat a lot healthier too, which I’ve noticed that I’ve been craving certain things which is weird for me unless it’s time for shark week. But I should probably end this here so I don’t ramble your ears off anymore then I have been. Thank you guys for all the love and support as always. Much love.