Yesterday was super crazy. Marcus didn’t get done with work until about 6:15pm, so we had to rush and try to get all of our errands done. But on the bright side, we picked up our vitamins! I’ll leave the link down below where we go them. I took my very first one this morning, and Marcus will take his when he gets home later today. It’s a months supply, so we will see what happens. So far I’m 5 DPO (days past ovulation), and actually not feeling too bad. I had a minor headache today, but I feel better now. To be honest I’m probably going to just relax until Marcus gets home. I’m crossing everything but my ovaries (hahah…no…okay..) for this to be our cycle. So far so good. My temps are looking good, and now we are waiting to see if my period comes or not next Thursday. I’m a little nervous, but it will all be worth it in the end (seriously, I’m going to print this on a shirt). I’ve also been pinning things to Pinterest like mad, which if you wanna check out mine, it’s on the menu at the top of the blog. Anyway, thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.
I finally have some news! I ovulated for the very first time, and I caught it! Well, I don’t think it was the very first time, but the important thing is that I actually was aware and got it on time. That sorta explains why my period hasn’t arrived yet, and why I was having all those uncomfortable pains in my ovary. Anyway, our vitamin journey starts tomorrow, I stop my progesterone cream tomorrow, and then we wait and see what happens. I’m praying so hard right now that this is it. This is our month. I don’t think I’ve ever been this excited to ovulate on time. I mean I cried for heaven’s sake (it was emotional, sue me). I also wanted to thank you guys for all the comments that have been coming in. You guys are awesome! This journey has taken a toll on the both of us, and it means a lot to have the support and love that we do. Anyway, this might become a short post seeing as how all I did today was clean the kitchen and hang out with Marcus after he got home. Thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.
So for the past few days, I’ve had a green light on my Fertility Friend which means that I was fertile. Although we are still awaiting the arrival of shark week and having so much CM (cervical mucus) it’s crazy TMI I know, so no new developments there. I will be trying some extra vitamin C though if I don’t start by Thursday. Other than that, everything has been going pretty well. I found this video that really should be shared everywhere in my opinion. I’ll leave it down below so you guys can check it out. We are hoping that this actually happens soon and I don’t have to sit here and worry about if I’m actually going to have a period or not. The waiting is seriously so much on me I’m getting tired of it to be honest. But I’m in a better mood then I was yesterday because I did decide to test, and it came out as another no. Marcus jumped on the bandwagon though, and made me feel so much better that which I am grateful for. I think today will just be another lazy day unless Marcus secretly has something planned. Anyway, thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.
So we are still patiently awaiting the arrival of shark week. I stop my progesterone cream again this coming Thursday (for those of you who don’t know why I need it, there is a blog explaining the reason), and then have to wait to see if it will come on its own. I have been feeling pretty dizzy and nauseous today though (don’t worry I’ve been keeping myself hydrated), so I will be testing tomorrow morning if I don’t start by then. I’m at the point now though of actually wanting a period so we can begin to move forward with this whole thing. I got another green light on my Fertility Friend as well, so I guess we will see where that leads. It’s been a rollercoaster ride these past few days ever since the good news, but I know in the end it will all be worth it. That’s been my mantra forever, but maybe I should print it on a shirt or something (haha). I’m trying to keep the positive attitude as best as I can. We start vitamins this week hopefully, and so the saga continues. Everything happens for a reason, and maybe I should print that on a shirt too. Anyway, thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.
I was informed yesterday that Marcus has hit screw it (not his words, but you get the point). We were in the middle of the vitamin section in Wal-Mart, and talking about starting to take them. As I was picking up my melatonin and we were walking away, he looks at me and says “You know, I’ve pretty much hit f*** it.” I was surprised and decided to ask him what he meant. He then explained to me that I’m not going to be the only one paddling the baby boat anymore. He wants to start taking the vitamins and actually trying harder then we have been. As far as our big baby book goes, we will be looking more into that when we get our new place. All he asks of me is that I’m not shoving it into his face or down his throat, because sometimes I get too excited and can’t stop which I understand. I asked him last night what made him change his mind, and he told me that he’s seen his paychecks and how well we’ve been doing, and he thinks it’s kind of pointless to not try. He feels we are able to take care of another person, and I think (in my own opinion of course) he’s realizing that he wants a baby just as bad as I do. So, in other words, now we just wait for my period. We are doing this, this is real. I’m nervous and excited and scared all at the same time. I know he is too, but I know we got this. If I can ask for a little babydust our way, that would be so cool! Thank you guys for all the love and support as always. Much love.
So I know I haven’t really updated you guys on our fertility journey, so I’m going to do that here. I’m currently on CD (cycle day) 43 and still awaiting my period. I’ve started temping again with my BBT (basal body temp) thermometer, and according to my Fertility Friend app, my temps fluctuate in normal levels, so I guess that’s a good thing. I’ve been having some right pelvic cramps that aren’t really painful, but more on the uncomfortable side. I think Marcus and I decided to start ourselves on Myo-X and some vitamins as well, but I’m not sure if that’s still the plan. I’ve had to start my progesterone cream once again as per instruction because no cycle yet. I’m still taking Vitex as well, so nothing has changed there. It’s been pretty rough on me so far. I’ve even taken a test to double check, and of course a big fat BFN (big freaking nope). I feel like I’m at my wits end some days, and today is one of those days. I try so hard not to get my hopes up when I don’t start my period, but it is super hard. I want Marcus and I to go get ourselves tested to make sure we are both okay, but I know that’s a ton of money without insurance. Things have just been an emotional rollercoaster for me today I guess, and I needed to take a minute and talk to you guys about it since I’m sure you’ve been wondering. Anyway, I should probably change and get ready to go since Marcus should be home soon. Thank you guys so much for all your love and support as always. Much love.
I cannot tell you guys how much this means to me. For those of us struggling with fertility, hearing something like this is some sort of relief. Marcus came home today from work, and sat next to me on the couch like normal. We began to discuss how taking vitamins would be a good idea so we could both become healthier. For those of you who don’t know, Marcus and I have this thing we have aptly named “the baby scale”. It’s pretty much a 1-10 on how he’s feeling about us having kids. I ask every now and again, and today I decided to ask. This is the very first time he has looked at me and said “An 8.” Apparently while scrolling through Facebook this morning while going pee, he had run across someone who was awaiting the arrival of her midwife. It clicked with him. This was his push into wanting to start becoming healthier and making a better go at this fertility journey. My heart just exploded with joy! Finally I don’t feel like I am the only one trying to make myself better in order to have a baby. Finally I don’t feel like I am alone. He made me so excited and so happy that I started to tear up. He realized in his words “You shouldn’t be the only one trying. I need to start too.” I just want to jump for joy and scream at the top of my lungs at the world because I am so excited. So we are going to start, and I am extremely excited about it. Thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.