The struggle is real…

Question time!

Hi guys! Marcus and I are filming a meet my husband Q and A for my channel today which I will leave linked down below. He has yet to appear on there, so I figured why not! If you guys have any questions you want to ask him, go ahead and leave them down below, on my last video (which you should totally check out by the way), or on my last fertility Instagram post which I will link down below as well, and don’t forget to tag me. Please keep them PG-PG13 (no favorite sex position questions, ya know stuff like that). I want this to be as interesting and fun as possible! Thank you guys so much for all your love and support as always. Much love.



Change is coming


Okay so I promised you all a fertility update, so here it is. I have been using the Ava bracelet for some time now, if you don’t know what that is, I’ll link it down below. I started a fertility Twitter and Youtube channel which I will link both of those down below too (you can also find them on the main menu), and I’m still on my meds. Marcus and I can officially sign up for health insurance on December 16th, and after that is done him and I plan on going in for testing. It’s still a struggle for us for sure, but we are taking it day by day, one step at a time. I’m still learning to be okay with myself, and to be okay with this journey that seems like it’s never going to end. I know this post was pretty straightforward, but did you really expect anything less? Anyway, before I ramble on too much, I actually need to do something else productive today. Thank you guys for all the love and support as always. Much love.

Here goes nothing

Hello people of the world, and a huge hello to my avid readers. It’s been awhile, so I figured I’d pop on and talk to you about what’s going on. First off, I’ve created a Youtube channel for Marcus and I’s fertility struggle which I’ll link down below, as well as in the main menu. Our new apartment is still as fabulous as ever, and we finally have my office done! I’ve also got a fertility update for you, which is a lot to process through so that’s coming I promise. Marcus and I have been so busy with the pet line, and his crazy work schedule, and life in general. We’ve got a big show coming up next month, so pet treats are being pumped out Monday as soon as he gets home. Anyway, that’s just about it for now. I’ll leave the link down below so you guys can check out the Youtube channel (and like and subscribe and share please and thanks). Thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.


Okay so, I just ran through and updated/added new photos and a new tab on the top menu! So go ahead and check them out if you would like to. Also don’t forget to check out Magnolia Studios social links also included in the top menu. Please feel free to share away, we don’t mind at all! I’m sorry I haven’t been posting as much, but thank you guys a bunch for all the love on my Mother’s Day post. It meant the world to me! It’s been a crazy ride in the Merrick household for sure! Anyway, thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.

Testing day

No this isn’t the kind of testing you’re thinking of. I’ll include links down below, but we had 4 out of 8 taste testers (all four legged) in our kitchen yesterday. As part of my aunts business, they have a pet line which Marcus and I are in charge of. We make pet beds and treats, and the Magnolia Studios Furbabies kitchen was the place to be for some free treat samples. It was a successful day for sure, and no I’m not going to share any recipes (sneaky sneaky). Our pet beds have launched on Etsy, but not the treats as of yet. Don’t worry though, they are coming soon (maybe in July….hint hint). Anyway, it’s a rest day for us I believe, unless when Marcus comes home he wants to experiment more. We’ll see. I’ll keep everybody up to speed on things, but for now, it’s a slow moving day here. Thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.


Okay to give you a little background story, my last period was in December of last year. It is now March 17, 2018 and I’m 87 days in. That’s right, 87. I’ve finally has some sort of spotting/bleeding today, so I’m waiting to see where the hell that leads. I’m so over this. i cannot begin to even describe to you how much I just wanna have a goddamn period. Of course we want babies, but I sorta need to know if my period is going to be able to happen in order to plan for it. This may be way too much information for some of you, but at this point you probably should be used to it. For the longest time I’ve been so irritated. Anyway, I just wanted to give an update here, because there hasn’t been one in God knows how long. Thank you guys for all the love and support as always. Much love.

It’s been awhile


Hello. Yes I’m still living I swear. It’s been really crazy lately with everything going on. We are still loving our new apartment, Toby hasn’t had a single Pica incident since being here (knock on wood, fingers crossed, all that jazz), Shatzie turned a year old last year, and just a lot of crazy. Turns out I have to take Marcus and I’s Colorado vacation alone this year, because of his work. Luckily enough, his mom is coming to get me and bring me home. I’ve been having some issues with my body as of late, which I won’t go into detail here, so look out for a fertility post (I hope). I started helping my aunts with their pottery business which I will link all their social medias down below, which is nice being able to have a job again even if it’s working from home. I’ll be doing some editing of the blog, so look out for those changes as well. I’m going to try and get back into this as much as possible, so bear with me. Anyway, thank you guys so much for all the love and support as always. Much love.