Today, is a rough one to say the least. Not all my days are happy, bright, and full of sunshine. Lets take today, for example. Peed on a stick this morning and of course it came back BFN (big freakin nope), got hit with a huge amount of knowledge that I didn’t expect which is hard to take in, been by myself all day (Marcus came home for an hour and then left for his second half of work) so it’s rather lonely minus the dogs. I don’t know what possessed me to take that damn test this morning. Maybe it’s the fact that AF (Aunt Flow) hasn’t shown her ugly face yet, and I’m not sure what to make of it. Maybe it’s the fact that all these lucky ladies are starting families and I’m so ready for my turn. I don’t know, but I took the test. It’s done. It’s over with. Of course I could piddle around the apartment, do some dishes, but I just don’t have the energy or the will to right now. This is actually day two of a depression hit, and I’ve pretty much tried everything to make it go away. Things aren’t easy today, and I really wish they were. I hate the way it eats at me. I hate the way it makes me feel. But, this is life today. This is me today, take it or leave it.